Changes

I've been sick as a dog the last 24. And have felt the tug of depression for the last 72.

I don't quite understand why, but I feel really on the edge; I mean that I am living on the edge of disaster. Financial, physical and emotional.

The money? I am in debt and have borrowed against that.
Physical? Inevitable eating poorly, this nagging sinus infection, sleep has been elusive.
Emotional? Where to start. Think I have seriously alienated a Very Good Friend; my galpal is effusive when we're together, but I don't feel any connection to her when we're apart; others have just not really moved me; my daughter has been influenced negatively by my X, IMHO. She's smart and gifted and is determined not to go to a 4-year school after graduation.

I just feel really tired, uninspired and nondirected.

I feel like there is some change afoot and I am not seeing what it is.